“Okay, let me tell you about the dinner I made on–”
“Oh my god, can I tell you what I ate for dinner? carrot sticks. carrot sticks and ham. Nobody made dinner last night…”
I didn’t think anyone could drag a conversation about carrot sticks that long… It’s almost comical listening to the buzz of conversation around the journalism room. Such smart and opinionated kids often clash in this room. Some are smart enough to drop the subject before it gets too out of hand. Most don’t. Most conversation is centered around recent new. Like today, one editor asked another who convicted Jesus to the cross? She asked right after the big bad editor claimed to know everything in church… She now struggled for the answer. She finally gave up by weaving around the question claiming her family doesn’t do the church shit… which lead to a whole different argument. Just as she wanted.
This is a classic example of how easy it is to get people to do what you want, or don’t do… However you can describe it, I do it very well. I sit here watching the editor, snipping at her every move. But why should I do that? There is no way I can say I am any better. In fact, I think I may be queen of manipulation. When needed, I can get anything from a later due date to a couple extra bucks with a few words. Of course, I do not do this so much anymore, but I used to. So, I have much experience. With words and excuses, there is no way a teacher can refuse their most behaved student. And if they think I am lying, what is there to support them? She hardly ever has late work, she does everything quietly and thoroughly in class, if she were to plan this out, it would have been from the beginning, so she could start gaining my trust… but, is her mind really that determined? No no, im just a very good liar and can be very charming at times.
I used to take actual joy in working my new-found power… until, of course, I got into more trouble than I gained.
How this came up? I dont know. I guess it is from watching people around me. All you really need to do is put on a good face, tell them what they want to hear, start a good lie and believe it. There really isn’t anything else to it. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. I used to do this a lot to everyone, to get money for mcdonald’s or to get a ride somewhere-whatever. Finally, I realized its wrong. These people trust me and I just take. Damn that was a dick move.
I guess that was kind of a rant.
Dude, 4 days off was soo luxurious but very busy. It’s been hard for me to jump on my chill teaching. I really don’t have much left but when I sit down I start thinking of the powerpoint, how i have to write the whole thing out, and, oh!, I still have to PRACTICE!! I just get freaked outtt! Then I pray, calm down, start up again, start hyperventalating then just take a break. Nothing gets accomplished. grr. I am super excited but am soo nervous and anxious as usual. I should just trust God for this one but I feel like I ain’t doing shit….
Oh jeeeez, Im tired