If you ever want to be the most busiest you’ve ever been in your life, get married. I am not trying to get into the comparison game with anyone, in reality everyone thinks their the busiest person on Earth don’t they?
I say “I’m planning a wedding I’m so busy”
Another person says “You think you’re busy? Try working full time to pay your way through school while raising a kid”
While another may say “You think you’re busy? Try working 13 hours a week at McDonalds”
All this to say there are for sure busier people out there, I know that. In fact, that’s the perspective I’ve been trying to take as the wedding day gets closer and closer. Regardless, there’s been a lot on my plate recently.
When you’re planning a huge party, it can be pretty exhausting figuring out all the details, honestly when I first proposed to Jeri I had yet to nail down a full time job. So a very real concern for me was “ok I’m going to marry the love of my life, now I just need a way to financially support her…God help me”
And what happened next…may shock you, click the link below to find out.
Just Kidding, did I trick ya?
For real though, the craziest most insane thing about the all powerful, all knowing, infinite, creator God of all existence…. Is that he listens to us. He listens to me, and cares about me.
1 John 5:14-15 says
“This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15 And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.”
We talked about this passage at our college Bible Study last night and I can say that since getting engaged I have seen God come through time and time again.
Like I said I didn’t have a fulltime job when I first proposed, but by the end of the summer a job literally dropped into my lap.
Jeri and I have been saving up for this wedding, but were praying for some support financially and money appears out of thin air practically.
Not only that, but we have had so much help from friends and family getting this thing together. Its been miraculous. God has been blessing us over and over and there was nothing we did or could do to deserve it.
Its so humbling to know that without the lord this wedding would not be coming together. I am not good enough in and of myself, but God knows that and has provided for me, and I know he’ll continue to provide for us (Jeri and I)
That leads us to today, only 11 days out from the wedding. Its crazy to think about how much my life is changing right now, full-time job, wedding, moving out of the apartments where I lived for the last 7 years, there’s a lot of change.
My favorite verse is Matthew 6:33 “For seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you”
A different translation says “and he will give you the desires of your heart”
I want to have the stuff I want, everyone does, but if there’s anything I have learned the last 7 years its that the best way to get what I actually want is to seek his kingdom first.
This does not mean God is like an ATM (put in prayers/ work, he puts out what you want). Sometimes God doesn’t give us what we want, but what we actually need. The key to having real faith, is when we do not get what we want and we remember the truth that Gods still good despite it.
Other times our will does line up with Gods will.
God has truly given me the desires of my heart, things I never thought I could have. I don’t deserve my job, I don’t deserve to marry a woman who loves me, I don’t deserve the loving friends that I have who have dropped everything to come and serve Jeri and I when we ask for help, I don’t deserve for God to have redeemed my family, yet he blessed me with all these things and so much more.
I am excited, nervous, and anxiously awaiting our wedding day. Through all of the busyness, all the planning, all the waiting; God has provided and I know he will continue to provide for my new family.
If I had to summarize all of this, it truly would be in three words.
Gods just good.